Doing fantastic!

Well life has takin me for a ride!

I am offically down 43 pounds!!!!

Which feels... unreal at times...

and totally excited when it feels real

I am no longer enrolled in school.

not something to brag about...

but I need this time to get a grip on everything

I am so easily overwhelmed at times

.... that i cant help but shut down ....

but i do know that becoming a nurse is no longer for me

im exploring become a dietitian

which would be awesome

I already know a ton about food, the good, bad, and ugly
there are ton of job oppertunities...

 and it would allow me to be more available for a future family

but of corse i need the degree before the family.

Since there is no more RN school I am no longer moving to springfield

which honestly I am just a little bummed about

but i know its the right decision for me at this point in my life

So that means I will be moving out in less than 2 months from now!

totally excited about that!

I am going to try and get on here alittle more than once every few weeks...

So I am going to update you in picture right now

Before::

After:: well soo far



6 weeks post op

20 pounds down! it makes such a difference!

Official update!

Ok so things have been pretty low key!

I am trying to find another job.

I am feeling an urgency for money,

even tho I am doing just fine!

The lapband is in need for a very big fill!!!!

I have lost a total of 13 pounds!

Which is ok! Cause this is a slow process!

So I have an appointment on the 30th!

idk what else to talk about...

so im gunna get off of here!

UGH.....

I am trying really hard to clean my room

& get my crap done!!!

But its just not working!

 ook im going to try again! ill update alittle more later!

waitin

Well I am waiting on my car to warm up, then I am off to a Christmas breakfeast at work.

Which I don't think I will be attending for very long.

I don't like some of the girls that work there; or the other way around.

Whatever way it is, it has led me to the descion to change shifts.

Which means instead of working 2p-10p I will be working 9:30p-6:30a.

Which is totally ok!

 I am getting ready to start school and this will allow me to

bring some home work with me to work!

 Its fustrating for me, not being able to get along with these ladies.

I am such a friendly person, its easy for me to get along with alot

of people except at this place!!!

As far as my lapband goes?

I am doing great! I feel awesome!

I have been workin out everyday, and chosing healthier foods,

and with that i know the rest will fall into place!

I am heading out tho!

This is me being silly in taylors room

and playin with my webcam!

I hope you get a laugh outta it!

Have a great day!!!

Ready to get back!

Ok so I am starting to drive my family crazy.

I get up and I am like 'Lets go, Lets go!'

I try to go to bed,

and im still trying to find other things to do!

My parents dont kno what to do with themselves,

and my sisters just find it all halarious!

I love it!

Although I have noticed that I am starting to feel

A little more edgy,

idk if its cause I am bored or if its just me!

I normally take anti-depressants but i haven't taken any,

 since my surgery

I like being all giddy and happy

I hate being moody

It's like I get to a point and I can't control my moods

I want to be happy, I try to be happy!

But I just cant! That alone is depressing.

So here soon, very soon I will be going to work outand going back to work,

then before I know it I will be

starting Spring Semester.

So hopefully that will help me a lot!

I used to always be on the go!

I enjoy being busy most of the time!

but when I get to feeling down, or when I am not in control

of my emotions then I just want to lock myself in my room until it passes

I also, used to talk to everyone!

my family referred to me as the social butterfly

I miss being like that, always talkin to someone

or having plans almost every weekend

...Its been a while...

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On different note...

I am headed down to branson tomorrow!

to visit The Majors

They are some close family friends

We have known them for like nine or ten years

so they are basically family!

I am totally excited to get to go down early,

jus because I enjoy their company!

My family will show up on Thanksgiving day!

My parents may or may not be there

My uncle Dan past away some time Saturday night!

I am really sad for my dad,

My and my sisters arent very close to his side of the family

but the last time I saw them was

for my Grandma Geis' Funeral

and I balled!

Because of my dad, I still to this day tear up

thinking about him looking down in that casket

saying "Good-bye Mom" as he starts to cry

I never once saw my dad cry until that moment!

Ugh... and now his brother!

anyways i outta get off of here!



Stir Crazy!

First of all, I would like to tell you all how awesome

that support group was, My mom was the leader!

I like i have said before my mom had the surgery done

herself, and she lost 115 pounds!

It made me appreciate,

1. the example I have in front of me

2. The resource I have in my house

3. My surgeon and his guidance

A couple of girls, were really struggling with the band

Mind over Matter

I asked my mom why I was so much hungrier here lately

(like the past 3 or 4 days)

She said, the inflammation in my stomach is down.

Which makes alot of sense!

So when I'm drinking something,

say this Mocha I am sipping on this morning

I have to remind myself that my stomach isn't the way it used to be

I literally have to ask myself

'Am I really hungry??'

Am I done with this??

If I don't then it defeats the purpose of the band

So I figure. If i work on this now, it will help me alot

when i really do start to feel the restriction

after fills.

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Please correct me if I'm wrong!

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Any way, I have some things I would like to get done today

and I am going to a party tonight

.... yes with alcohol....

but none for me

which is soooo okay with me!

You Lady's have fantastic day!