100% Productive!

Well the last two days have been very good!

Yesterday, was very productive!

I really didnt spend much time resting to be honest!

But I feel like the old me already!

I am perky & happy & positive & smiley & easy going

In my mother words "I Love this Angelica"

I also dyed my hair, jus a meduim brown

Change is good, Change is long over due!

Before Hair

 

During the Dye

 

After the Dye

not much of a change but I am likin it better!

Today I went south for the day,

took a trip to Springfield, Mo

I had to go to this "STAR Session"

for the school I am going to next semester

Me and my Momma enjoyed each other

well I know I did... and I am pretty sure she did

So I am pretty much all ready to go for school

except for that darn FASFA

which is getting done right now!

On a different note...

A deer hit my car!

And guess what I went to get the damage esmated

get ready for this.............

$2700



this might not be alot for some of you

but this is my first deer

Pretty good damage done, huh?

It was me and my sister in the car

and we were just fine!

so no harm done... Thank god for insurance!

anyway, i better get to goin

tonight is my first 'support group' for the lapband

ill let yall know how that goes tomorrow

PS. I am diggin this blog thing, esspecially with all

 this time on my hands these last couple of weeks

Feelin Much Better!

So I have been having alot of pain where my port is...

and i guess that is normal, but today that isnt even bothering me!

I havent had a motrin at all today!

I am doin my laundry!

i am starting to feel back to me, other than a little drained

i have had some pudding and yougert today...

not exactly clear liquids!

but i am down 10 pounds...

and finally got that special visitor that will get rid of that excess water!

any ways im bored outta my mind and im jus dyin to get something done

maybe peel those potatoes for momma!

@home

Well, the ride home was rough it was pouring rain and i was tired. Then wallgreens didnt have my pain meds in stock tried telling us that I had to wait til monday, by then it was sooooo time for meds, but mom and dad took care of it and i had some pain meds all night long.

My sleep could of been better last night! I was up every two hours... and this afternoon i slept on and off.. but i went to walmart and i walked around alot!

My infection on my arm was not an issue wat so ever which was awesome! and a matter of a fact its basically gone!

thank you guys for the encouraging comments!

surgery

surgery went well... im sittin in the hospital alittle dizzy and ready to get outta here!

The Day Before Surgery!

Wow! If someone told me two years ago that I was going to be having lap-band surgery tomorrow, I would have told them they were crazy! Two years ago my mom was about to have the surgery herself and boy, oh boy, did she want me to get it too! But in my mind it was a cop out, if my mom was so determined to lose the weight she would not need a lapband! When my mom would tell me I should get it, I told her im 19 years old there is no reason why i cant do it by myself! Well, I did, I lost 30 pounds! Once i hit the 199 mark i had to be hospitalized, my gallbladder was not being good to me be any longer! So I was in the hospital for 5 days, it was painful at first but once i got that morphine pump it was smooth sailing! Haha.. When I got home I ate and ate, I hadnt eaten anything in like 2 and a half weeks!! So I gained a few back! But instead of losing it back... I gained it all back within a year and a half... I got a little more depressed with every pound I gain back and with the depression I would eat more and more.

In August, I was having a really bad day, I sat on the couch and cried the day away! I wasnt as carefree as I let on. Me and my mom got on a fight, it was something silly, but i remember her picking the fight because she only wanted me to be happy and be better to myself! And ultimately thats what I want as well! So she sent my dad over to my apartment. He sat and expressed his and my mothers concerns not only about my depression but for my health.

 So after thinking about it for a few months silently, I admitted defeat, or at least thats how i felt, I told him that I dont need, this my body does, a 21 year old shouldnt have to worry about her blood presure being too high, or have her doctor tell her the odds of having a heart attak at the age of 30 is tooo high! But I want this, because I want to be able to have childern, there is no way i will be able to carry a baby to full term if my blood preasure is high,without a fetus growing in me. I also dont want to look in the mirror and think to myself "ugh, how gross!" I want to walk in the room and just shine not just because of my smile but because I am glowing, because I am finally comfortable in my own skin! I want to be able to love my self from the inside out, because unfortunately I have never been able to not only love the person I am and be happy with the body I am in. There is soo much I want in this life, that right now Im just not able to have, not because I am fat, but because I dont believe in myself enough to go out and get it...

Tomorrow I am having lap band surgery! 

The offical before pictures!

I was makin faces at taylor(my little sister)

My visit to the Doctor!

Well the doc took one look at it and said no surgery for you!!!

she thinks it might be MRSA!

But she opened it up... got all the pus and gunk out and then cleaned it!

she also got a culture... to test it to see if it is indeed MRSA!

PLEASE PRAY THAT IT ISNT!

I am going to take the antibiotics keep the wound doctored and pray

 that the reddness and the swelling go down by thursday morning!

so i have like 32 hours to pray and to heal!!!

otherwise no surgery for another week or maybe even til december cause not next thursday

but the thursday after is thanksgiving!

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thank you ladies for the advice...

and i 100% agree with you

i no longer speed!

unfortunatly i decided this after i got arrest the 2nd time

and got the speeding ticket for going twenty over!

Day after tomorroe if...

So my surgery will be not tomorrow but the day after that!!! HURRAY!!!

that is if....

this doesn't put it off!

My luck has been so bad! its been like one bad thing after another... and its been just awful...

it all started I think when I got fired at the end of July!

Then my cousin bailed on me(which was a blessing)

then I had to move back in with my parents

two weeks after that I find out my license was suspended
(for not appearing in court for tickets I got in my cousins car!)

two weeks after that I got pulled over and had to be bailed out of jail

Two weeks after that I got pull over again,
got another driving while suspend ticket + a speeding ticket for going twenty over the speed limit

and like any other parent would do... they got pist!

had to fork out another 200 plus dollars to my lawyer

and now this!

I will fight to see that there is a surgery on thursday!!!!

ugh i need to stop this string of bad luck like today!